I Call It A Life!

Man can say nothing of what he is incapable of feeling, but he can feel what he is incapable of putting into words.

 St Augustine said that at the turn of the 5th century. Augustine was born in 354 in North Africa and went on to become the Bishop of Hippo. He was influenced by Plotinus and his writings about his Christian faith are varied and are read throughout the church today. He died during the siege of Hippo in 430.

Another one of his quotes worth noting here is;

You can know something which you are not aware that you know.

In both of these insights, you can sense that Augustine believed that there was more to him, than what he was taught. His intuitive self was coming through, expressing itself in words. Another aspect of his consciousness was present in his writings.

There is certainly a part of me that I am just beginning to know. I feel it and try a lot of things to connect to it. At times I will suppress it, other times I question it, and at times I'm angry at it.  There is this otherness about me that is gently nudging me to recognize it. After putting myself through all sorts of drama, I thought I would just accept and allow it to communicate through me using my physical senses. Once I made that choice another world begins to emerge in my physical reality. I experience and feel a reality that is ever-expanding and I sense and express my self in a completely different way. It is as if I have been turned inside out and the tags and labels are visible and they read: Spirit having a human experience.

Going through the process of awareness is a unique thing. I can only speak about my experience; each one of us has our own time, place and method of reconnecting. Mine was through writing. My form of inner self expression is channeled through my poetry and essays.

Poetry or should I say my form of writing, which I call Sleeves and Spirit Songs, are the catalyst for me to realize there is a deeper feeling within me wanting to become physically vocal. This feeling is my inner consciousness opening itself to my ego driven world, and reintroducing itself to me as another self. Immediately my perceptions of life and my role in it change. A warm feeling of unity encapsulated me. Fear of the unknown disappears. My world starts to make sense and by using my inner senses, my life has purpose. 

This reconnection or remembering is hard to put into words or symbols; they are road maps, but not the territory where this unity rests. The more I learn the more I realize the growth that's available to me. I am evolving into the entity I have always been, but forgot. In the process I see the beauty that surrounds me. I feel the love that is me. I connect to the source of all life. Life is experience, not just a physical one, but it is an inner journey that takes me to places I dream about but now I'm able to manifest those thoughts. I'm connected to all consciousness in a web of inner worlds that open like a Russian doll. One world within another and another and I begin to sense what Augustine was expressing so many years ago.

The door of knowing and experiencing this consciousness is swinging wide open. Now I express other aspects of my self in words and in acts of service. I appreciate all forms of life and accept all consciousness as a whole part of the whole that exists within me. Now I know something and I am still unaware of everything I know. Each moment there is another door, another thought that takes me on another journey where I feel what I am incapable of putting in words. I call it a life that is filled with expression and expansion of my family of consciousness.